Wow it's been a long time since I posted here. Tons of stuff has happened, don't even know where to start so I'm not going to go into any of it quite yet. Perhaps I will soon. Right now I'm just working on my mental health and looking for a job. You can also find me over on Facebook...I log in there more regularly than here.

I'm home from the hospital and am doing fine. Glad for the percoset, yay! Also glad to no longer be at the mercy of two month long periods and other female bullshit. No more babies for me, it's official.

So tomorrow I go in to the hospital to have my tubes tied. They'll also do an endometrial ablation so that I won't be able to have periods anymore. I'm wildly happy to not be having periods anymore, but I'm a little sad to close the door on another child forever. Then again, I am 43 now... that door was kinda shut anyway. :-\

He's showing signs of being partly scottish terrier! The little clumps of hair over his eyes and around his mouth... so cute! (No one has seen the daddy dog, and the mommy dog was hit by a car two weeks before we got Buddy, so we had no idea what kind of dog he might be.)

He's still just the best puppy. The only thing we're still working on bigtime is the housebreaking--but he's still only 12 weeks old--it will come.

He sits, plays fetch, chews his rubber squeaky bone, gives little kisses... he's so sweet. One of the funniest things he does is he get up on the back of Alex's chair and GROOMS his hair! Buddy goes through Alex's hair, pulling the hair through his teeth, licking it, and then every few seconds, raking it down with his paw, exactly as if he were combing the hair! It's HILARIOUS. I wish I had a video camera, I'd record this.

I know I haven't posted anything in way too long.... Winter wasn't an easy time for me. In September, we moved back into the house we got married in--the big yellow house--and I thought things were going to be fine. Thanksgiving weekend, the for sale sign went up... and in February, the owner informed us that the house had sold and that the new owners did not want tenants, so we were obliged to move out.

We found an apartment almost identical to the one that Nikolena and I lived in when we met Alex. It's actually owned by the same person as our old apartment--the only difference is that this one has washer/dryer connections. I could NOT go through the laundrymat thing again. Got to have a washer and dryer. So we moved last weekend. Mostly. There are still a few things to be gotten from the other house, but we will get those this weekend. We have to be fully vacated by March 15.

I am so sad to leave the house I loved...twice now.

On the up side, the apartment is kind of pretty...has white tile floors and newly painted walls and new carpet in the bedrooms. And it has a pool. And the rent is cheap. Very very cheap. So I'm trying not to mind the roaches that appeared before we even moved our things in... (I fumigated day before yesterday, but I've seen 2 since then)... and I'm trying to ignore the constant noise that living in an apartment community brings.

My consolation prize is Buddy, a little mixed breed puppy that we found on Craigslist. He bears a passable resemblence to a dog I loved years ago, and he is keeping me busy teaching him to be housebroken. He's only 11 weeks old, so it hasn't happened quite yet. In the meantime, I'm keeping the bedroom doors shut and loving the tile floors for their easy cleanup.




Buddy makes me go outside, many times a day. He also showers me with love and kisses. He's good therapy.

I'm looking forward to summer, when I can lie by the pool and soak up the sun. I'm going to do quite a bit of that.

Right now, I just feel like I'm growing my skin back. It's been nearly a year since I broke, and I am still healing. I guess healing takes quite a while when you go as far away as I was.

so, I'm going back to college. am going to get my BS in elementary ed, to teach K-12. I know. I am totally masochistic for doing this. wish me luck.

It's so much nicer, using my laptop on a desk instead of the coffee table! Alex organized the office this weekend, so now we have 2 desks set up! Yay!

So today we invited my parents over for dinner and I made a frozen lasagne and garlic bread and a huge salad with avocados, grape tomatoes, onions, green olives, scallions, and kippers in it. Yes, the salad was my favorite part. I think I've been salad depriving myself. I made a dessert that didn't quite work out, but was still so-so. Then after my parents left, we went out in the backyard and made a fire in the fire pit. I moved the wrought iron furniture down to the firepit and put blocks under it so it won't sink into the ground--basically I made our little 'living room' outside, the way we used to have it. We roasted marshmallows and then I sat and played with the fire for a good hour or so after. It was SO nice. One thing I do need, I need to buy some more torches to put around the yard like we had before. The holidays are coming up, and I want to be able to light the torches & go out and have a fire if we want to.

Happy Birthday Steven!!!!!